As I reflect on this past year, a few words come to mind: exhilaration, exhaustion, growth, opportunities, disappointment, triumph.
2013 was definitely a very interesting year. It was filled with a lot of opportunities that I didn’t plan for, they found me. The majority of those opportunities became blessings and I am so very thankful for them. We also opened our first brick and mortar location in 2013 and with that came exhilaration, exhaustion, growth and a lot more opportunities that we could have asked for and feel so blessed that they came our way. And right along side all of that came some serious disappointment. I’m going to try my best not to sound like Debbie Downer here, but I saw the side of some people this past year that I wish I hadn’t seen.
My Word of the Year for 2013 was “Surrender”. Interesting choice. I definitely had a lot of imperfect moments myself, and I definitely ran with everything that came my way and “surrendered” to them. I rode the wave of imperfect days for sure. What I’ve had a hard time surrendering to, however, is why people choose to do and say what they do. I need to learn to be better about rolling with those kind of punches.
I had to go inward quite a few times this year and avoid all people because I was too hurt, too afraid and too unsure of what might happen next. I’ve found my trusted circle is getting smaller and smaller the older I get. But I’ve definitely become more comfortable and “okay” with it.
I’m no longer willing to let it get me down. I’m moving forward. I can’t control what others think, feel, say or do. This is where the “triumph” in 2013 comes in: I’ve also been blessed to meet some absolutely incredible, kind, thoughtful, inspiring people in 2013 and I’m going to concentrate on them instead in 2014.
My circle may be smaller at the end of 2013 than it was at the beginning, but I am pretty darn proud of who’s coming with me in to 2014. It’s going to be an absolutely amazing year! I’m going to make sure of it!